Since I will be running in my first ever race as an adult this Saturday, I decided that my time was best spent this week making sure I was ready for the 2 mile event. That said, I skipped week 6, day 2 this morning and plotted out a 2.6 mile route. I did my warm-up walk and got to running. I ran most of the way, but did stop briefly to stretch my calves and catch my breath a couple of times. All in all, I'd say I ran close to two miles, but not all of it. I know that I've said it is OK if I come in dead last on Saturday, and it is, really, deep down I know that it is OK, but still, there is a part of me that is really nervous and hopes I don't make an ass of myself. It won't be long now until we know and the comfort I will take, if I do in fact embarrass myself, is that it will make for an entertaining blog update that will provide my loyal readers a hearty laugh.
What I really hope though is that I exceed my own expectations on Saturday. I hope that the energy of all the other runners helps me get back the spark I've been looking for. I looked up the results from last year's race and am fairly certain that I will be in the back of the heap. The course is a one mile there and back so we finish where we started. My husband and kids will be there to cheer me on at both ends, so that will be really nice. I laugh to know that some people finished the race last year in less time than it takes me to go a mile, but with any luck, seeing a runner passing me in the other direction will give me some motivation to kick it up a notch. The real goal for Saturday though is that I finish the race and feel good about it and myself. That's all I can hope for. So the rest of this week, in addition to readying myself physically for Saturday, I will also be readying myself mentally. I have to talk my nerves away, and remind myself that I can do this. I will do this. When summer began, the idea of running in any race was absurd and I can't let myself forget how far I have come. I am so proud and excited to say that I know I CAN DO IT!