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I have been a stay at home mom for the last 5 years. I love being with my children and feel so blessed and lucky to have the opportunity to do so, but I often get lost in the shuffle of it all. I have tried to lose weight and get in shape many times in my life, with varying degrees of success. It has seemed especially hard since having kids. So, I've decided to sliver out a little piece of time for myself to get back in shape and get back to feeling good about myself. I am hoping that this blog will help me find an outlet to talk about my experiences and find a community of people who have similar goals. I hope you enjoy reading this blog as much as I enjoy writing it!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

I'm back, but the mojo hasn't caught up to me yet...

I am back from vacation, unpacked and getting back into the swing of things.  Somewhere between New Hampshire and California, Ella caught strep throat, so sleep is in short supply and patience and understanding is in great demand.  I did manage to get in a run yesterday before our trip to urgent care and it was not pretty!

Got my stretch in and started with a nice walk and then got to jogging.  I decided not to jump back in with a program run, rather, I'd just  go out and see what I could do after three weeks of very undicsiplined, unstructured running.  It was not good.  Far from going out there and running 20 minutes without stopping, I was tired and out of breath far earlier than I had been.  I went about 2 1/2 miles and I'd venture to say a good mile plus of it was walking.  I'm sure that part of the problem was lack of sleep.  Of course, some of it was just being out of practice and routine.  The last of it though, I suspect was lack of structure.  I should have had more of a plan and pushed myself to reach goals.  C'est la vie.  Live and learn.  Tomorrow morning I will get up and I am going to step back to a week 4 workout.  I will most likely do this once then go back to week 5 and repeat it in its entirety then move forward from there.

I have mixed feelings about what has happened here.  I am glad I made the most of my vacation.  I saw so many old and good friends, spent time with my family and did so many fun things with my kids.  It was a very well spent, exhausting time and I loved every minute of it.  I am disappointed though that it came at the cost of my running momentum.  I wish that I had been able to carry on while I was back there and not lose the drive I had.  So many of my fellow runners are so crushed to lose their momentum due to injury and I have always felt so bad for them because I knew how important the routine and consistency was to my success.  Now I am there because of choice, not circumstance.  Honestly, I am not being too hard on myself.  I just wish I could have had my cake and ate it too. 

I do remain committed to this and tomorrow will be the first day of the next stage in this process for me.  A new starting point with the same finish line in sight.  My choice may have made the road to the finish a little harder, but I will get there.  So, here, I pick up the old mantra, like the Olympic torch, raise it high and carry it with pride:  I CAN DO IT!


  1. WooHoo! You CAN do it Theresa, and you will have support along your journey!! I am starting W3 tomorrow, am still excited about being a runner, which is still weird for me to say! Looking forward to each week, although I don't look too far ahead so as not to deter myself. I'm thankful for the support I've found along the way as well! And don't be so hard on yourself about taking a pause in your running. You have been out enjoying life and family...nothing wrong with that! Best of luck to you...look forward to hearing how your Monday goes!!

  2. I know exactly how you feel. About 2 weeks ago, I finished week 5 and moved through week 6 with vigor. I felt to be on the TOP of my game and excited more than ever to call myself a runner. Last week, I had a personal conflict that derailed my schedule for about 4 days. It was tough to find my momentum again. I decided that I would continue where I left off, however, I had a REALLY BAD W7D1 run and almost called it quits. However, I put that day to bed and did W7D2 AND W7D3 with a high degree of distress but completed them both.

    This past Saturday, was my off day and I had struggled for 45 minutes in the bed trying decide if I would get up and run or relax. Finally, at 6:45a, I decided I would put my little C25K iphone app on 45 min run and just see how far I could run. For the first time in my life, I ran for 42 minutes and I ran for 3 miles. I just felt I could do it. So proud of myself! Slow...no doubt, wanted to stop...unquestionable, did it...unbelievable.

    You can find your mojo again, you just have to get excited about it. You have to get your confidence back. Going back to W5 is a good idea, but don't dwell on it. Do it once and move to the next week. You can do it, we all can. You can tell your mind to overpower your body and will. You just have to believe you can do it...and you can. I hope you get the fire in your belly again soon.

    I have a family blog that I periodically post updates on my personal C25K journey. The link is listed below and I hope maybe you can find some encouragement. You can do it...you are doing it!

    http://brownfamilysoundoff.blogspot.com/search/label/Weight Loss Challenge

  3. Three weeks is a long time to be off, so it will probably take you about two weeks to get back to where you were. I went through this in June and it was hard to come back and just not feel strong. I am just about where I want to be, even with taking another week off for vacation in the middle of July. I know that you can do it!