I want to be honest here, so I have to start by saying that today sucked. I was awake for hours last night and when I was just on the verge of falling back asleep and able to catch an hour of precious slumber before the alarm went off, my daughter woke up. All she wanted was her pacifier and she went right back to sleep, but I would not be so lucky. So, a few minutes before 6:00, I got out of bed, drank some water and scarfed down a banana. I don't usually eat before I run, but I figured I had the time to let it sit and digest before I hit the pavement, so I gave it a try.
I don't know if it was the lack of sleep or the food in my stomach or both, but this run never felt good to me from the start. I finished each run interval, but labored through them all. Try as I might to think positive thoughts, each gruelling minute seemed to last an eternity and I felt nauseous the entire time. Normally, I really enjoy walking at the end of the last run interval and intentionally go further than I need to so I have a good 3/4 - 1 mile to cool down, but today it was tough. My legs were rubbery and slow and it seemed like I would never get home. It was, of course, raining, but the one bright spot in this morning's workout was the beautiful rainbow I got to see along the way.
Some days are just going to be like that I guess. I'm glad I pushed through, but I wish I felt better about it. I have a wedding to go to on Saturday in a nice grove in the Redwoods. We are camping there afterwards and I decided that there was so much happening that morning to get me ready and out the door that I was going to repeat one more week 4 workout rather than trying to take on something new and unknown. I'm glad I decided that in advance, because after today, I definitely am not feeling like I am ready for week 5 yet. Hopefully, like every other 4th workout I do, I kick its ass and move on the next day.
I'm sorry, my friends, that I was not able to sprinkle a little ray of sunshine today. As much as I try to be positive, I am also trying to be honest, so there you have it. I wish you all the best in your runs today or tomorrow and leave you with this though...if I could get up today and finish this run, despite feeling tired and sick to my stomach, the YOU CAN DO IT too!