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I have been a stay at home mom for the last 5 years. I love being with my children and feel so blessed and lucky to have the opportunity to do so, but I often get lost in the shuffle of it all. I have tried to lose weight and get in shape many times in my life, with varying degrees of success. It has seemed especially hard since having kids. So, I've decided to sliver out a little piece of time for myself to get back in shape and get back to feeling good about myself. I am hoping that this blog will help me find an outlet to talk about my experiences and find a community of people who have similar goals. I hope you enjoy reading this blog as much as I enjoy writing it!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Week 1, Day 4 - one more for some confidence

As I mentioned last time, I felt I needed one more week one workout before moving on.  I'm very glad I did it because I ran strong the entire time and I never really felt like I was running out of steam during any of my intervals!  So now, with a new sense of confidence and some newly acquired wind in my sails, I will move on to week 2.

I got up this morning with unusual gusto that I attribute to my new bedtime pep talk.  As I lay in bed falling asleep, I kept telling myself that I was going to sleep well and that I was going to feel good and be ready to run in the morning.  I told myself I that I wanted to do it and that I could do it  and that everything was going to be great.  I swear that it helped because I did feel good and ready.

I had a new friend with me on my run today.  I discovered The Chubby Jones Podcast on iTunes and am so happy I did.  The woman's name is Mia and she is a 30 year old woman with lifelong weight struggles who did this Couch to 5K thing and created her podcast to help others out there do it too.  There was some great music to go with the run and a lot of great and funny encouragement from Mia as I went along.  In the middle of the first 60 seconds, playing the Joy Division song, "Love will tear us apart", Mia breaks in to say that you may feel like this run is going to tear you apart, but it won't, you can do this!  The comic encouragement was great! 

Best of all for me though was the fact that I could clip my iPod on and just run.  I didn't need to hold it.  I didn't need to watch the stopwatch.  When it was time to run, she told me.  When it was almost time to walk she chimed in and counted down the last few seconds.  It was nice to just listen and look and enjoy.  I think that when you hold that stopwatch in your hand and you're running and getting tired, waiting for that 60 seconds to expire is a lot like watching for a pot of water to boil:  seems like it is never going to happen.  But it did happen.  I finished my run with great ease - in fact, I was so blissfully unaware of how close to finishing I was, I ended up about a mile from home when she came on to congratulate me on completing my workout.  I trotted a bit more and then finished with a good walk. 

As I move on, I am feeling like the struggles I have had to control what I eat are getting easier too.  The better I feel about myself the less I want to eat what I shouldn't.  It is all so connected and I really see that now.  I know that as I continue on in this journey, my sense of accomplishment is going to keep making me strong in my body and mind.  I know that one day soon, I'll be able to sit down and enjoy a cookie or a bowl of ice cream without the guilt that usually accompanies them.  I am one week into this program and I already feel light years away from where I was 7 days ago.  I am so excited to see where this all leads me.  Each day, each night, and all the hours in between, I am feeling ever confidant that I CAN DO IT!


  1. Just wanted to say Well Done You :) I found your blog through c25k on facebook and I'm just a couple of runs ahead on W2D2 today. I felt running 90 seconds sounded very scary but with the podcasts its really much easier to zone out. You can do it.

  2. I really needed to read this post right now. I just finished W1D1 and had to ask my husband when I got home which arm goes numb when you're having a heart attack. I saw your post on Facebook and an SO happy to read that it's going to get more managable!

  3. Thanks for linking this blog in your response! I was thinking I might need 2 weeks at week one and then I started feeling guilty about it - glad I am not the only one who had that thought!

  4. Love your blog! Thanks for all the encouraging words I am on w1d3 and findreading your blog very inspirational .

  5. I also found your blog through the C25K FB group. Thank you for sharing your journey!

    I wanted to remark that I feel the same way when making food choices since I started. It's SO much easier to make better choices now that I am running and working out regularly. I am more appreciative of my body for all the hard work it does for me and am more likely to honor it with better choices. It's a great feeling!